Nurturing Mental Health

Hi, this side Shweta hails from Chhattisgarh, the state is well known for its tourism and Bhilai steel plant. Growing up as a kid I have always had this issue that why I do not look good enough like I had friends around me who used to dress up really well and always updated with the trend carrying expensive gadgets, I always used to question myself that why can't I be like them why God has made me this way I was supposed to be born smart and beautiful enough like everyone else was doing around me back then, I used to get upset about my physical appearance and gradually as I grew up it tends to get more intensive the circumstances were such that I couldn't be able to resist I was in a verge of vulnerability feeling I became hopeless for that matter, yes I am talking about identity crisis it started way long back then I could imagine and do something about it at that very moment, as years passed by and when I hit my teenage that's when I started realizing the fact that I have been grappling to get myself into that so-called perfect squad which was never existed in reality. I have been bullied for a really long time for not looking perfect and not having a perfect body yeah I have been body-shamed not only once or twice but to an extent wherein I have started losing confidence in myself in fact I have tried many things to fit in in the happening squads, I was more succumbing towards unrealistic expectations I was being somebody who I was not and I was not enjoying doing it even for the fact that all I wanted was to be a right fit in the peer squad, constant pressure on me being perfect and fear of getting FOMO’d by people I transformed myself completely to someone I was not, the new me was not helping me to uplift me and I ended up putting myself into depression, all of that started taking a toll on my mental health, I had to help myself I badly wanted to come out of it until one day when I seriously decided to work on my mental health. yes, with folded hands I prayed to god that thanks for giving me this life thanks for making my inner soul realize the fact that no matter how I look or I do I should always accept the way I cause there is always someone whos grappling to survive every single day, you should be thankful for what you've been put through and whatever you have received, the god's message was loud & clear, in the capacity where I could start rebuilding myself without comparing my journey with others. I worked hard on myself to get out of hunky dowry life and accepted myself however the way I am and most importantly I have learned the lesson that it's totally fine to be not perfect all the time, it is totally fine to be not knowing things it is totally fine to not be a go-getter all the time, take a break for yourself to work on your mental skills, be yourself even if people do not accept you, In the constant pressures of getting being perfect you might end up losing your own individuality, do not lose your authenticity just for the temporary happiness. “your Happiness belongs to you and you are responsible for your own happiness everything else is just a hoax”.